Who is like our God majestic in holiness, awesome in glory, working wonders? By His word everything was made that is in heaven or on earth or under the earth. He formed us from the dust of the ground, breathed His breath into us, and gave us life. He keeps his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love You and keep his commandments.

 I stood in awe of God instead of in fear of chaos.

Worship and prayer truly allowed me to get a perspective change. Instead of letting circumstances blind me, I was able to rise above the situation and look into the eyes of my God who never changes. I put my trust in His faithfulness instead of living in the fear and chaos of my situations. I held firm to the promises that were unwavering. As I began to rely on the only One who offers true rest and peace, I forgot all about my unmet expectations and disappointments. None of it mattered in light of the Glory of God. I stood in awe of God instead of in fear of chaos. He spoke peace to my soul and made me whole.

But the Devil, he uses parts of our stories where pain, abandonment, or rejection became our daily bread and then reminded us of those memories, of how we felt in those times, leading us to the conclusion that God is not who he says he is. Unlike God, Satan doesn’t have our best interests in mind. The truth is, God would never tell us to do something without the best intentions. It’s outside of his character to do or be anything but good. Most of the time, when God tells us what to do, the enemy will ask questions that undermine what God has already clearly said. “God told you to do what?” the Devil asks. “Why would he do that? Is it that important?” His suggestions are meant to confuse us. The enemy will always try to change God’s periods into question marks. He turns God’s loving boundaries and instruction into a question of intention. If we allow God’s statements to us to change into questions about us, we will lack confidence. Our curiosity will lead to confusion, and eventually our enemy will corrupt what God said.

In the midst of the complex manifestations of my mood swings, I heard a simple message. It was a cry for intimacy, a desire to be known and be loved unconditionally and a deep longing for reassurance that I would be able to express my feelings openly to people without fear. I prayed that I would believe that people love me and have my best interest.

If you pray for me, pray that I have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May I experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then I will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God (Ephesians 3:16).

Paul says it takes power from God to begin to grasp His love. The love of God cannot be fully explained but only experienced. His love surpasses every boundary in every direction – there are no limits. No matter where a person has been, or where they are currently, or where they are heading — He loves. No matter how shattered, closed, or rebellious we are — He still loves.

The realization of forgiveness in Christ and His love usually strengthens a person’s desire to lead a more disciplined and holy life. And it is this deepened desire that will lead to earnest prayer for the Spirit’s aid and a more diligent effort to pursue discipline and holiness. Paul said it is the love of Christ: “For Christ’s love compels us” (2 Corinthians 5: 14). It was not a continual challenge to be more disciplined, or more committed, or more holy. Rather it was his constant heartfelt awareness of Christ’s love for him. It was not the thought that “I ought to do this or that” or a feeling of guilt for not doing something that motivated Paul. Rather it was his overwhelming sense of Christ’s love for him that spurred him on. I want that freedom and I want to follow Christ.

“Let the breath of His hope, fill the depths of my soul, till all I know Love found me.”